For as long as I can remember I have despised this day. The days leading up to it is those of dread and anxiousness. When I woke up this morning, I didn't want to get out of bed. I just wanted to slink away and not face the day. Not face the fact that we have been abandoned. Of course, it is nothing new. My father has been gone from my life for 29 years, you would think I would be use to it by now. Elijah's father has never been apart of his life. Fours years have come and gone. Four years he can never get back. I often wonder if either of our father's ever think of us.
Don't get me wrong. There is a blessing in our life. Elijah has the best relationship with my stepfather, Ronnie. No words can express the gratitude I feel towards that man for what he does for my son. And me.
I went to church today. I didn't want to, but I did. We have some amazing dad's at our church and I tried to tell each of them Happy Father's Day. I truely admire them.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
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Your father has no idea what he's missing out on!!! Just remember that you have a Heavenly Father and His love is unchanging and always there. And I'm glad you came this morning. I love seeing you in the crowd..... and I love you!
ReplyDeleteI have a hard time with Father's Day too....hey so are we ever going to meet in person? LOL
ReplyDeletesome times people suck! I am glad I know you.
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine how hard that is for you. I dread the day Mason understands he was abandoned by both his parents. Elijah is blessed to have you!
ReplyDeleteHave you ever read Captivating?